terrible HORRIBLE no good VERY BAD night

I had the most terrible, horrible, no good, very bad night at work last night. I'm so glad it's over, but I can't stop thinking about it. And nothing that horrible really even happen to make me feel this way. I think it was just little things upon little things added to the fact that I felt so unconfident in what I was doing, because it was my first time to have a trach patient and the transfer to our floor was not good, and then lots of unexpected stuff happened, and then the doctor was a jerk (but my team leader and the charge nurse told me not to worry about it and that he's a jerk to everyone and that I did good and to brush it off), and it wasn't my fault that the patient pulled out her PICC line, and I just wanted to go home, and I cried twice at work, and I hate that, and then another patient needed blood, and then the phlebotomist didn't come for like an hr and a half, and then my patient finally got blood at 4:50 am and the blood had beed ordered at 10:30 pm (but it wasn't an emergency, so it really is okay), and then my patient's IV went bad right at change of shift, and then my other patient's central line wouldn't draw back, and at start of shift half of the medicines weren't there for my transplant patient, and I don't speak Mandarine and couldn't communicate well with one of my patients, and one of my patients wouldn't use the call light, but was unsteady on her feet, and ended up on the floor, and I gave all of my bedtime medicines late, and I thought the night would never end, BUT I had the most wonderful team ever last night. My floor splits us up into teams, so that we can help each other if we need to, and my teammates helped me so much, and I totally would have lost it without them. Of course that's the way it should be, but in all of my nursing school rotations I never saw team work like what goes on on my floor. And the nurses that float to my floor talk about how much they like floating to our floor over others because we're so helpful. You HAVE to have that on my floor or NOBODY would work there because the patient load can be so intense. Praise God no real emergencies happened last night. I bawled when I got home today. It felt nice to finally release all the anxiety that had built up over the night, but it would have been nicer if anybody wasn't working today and could hang out with me. Although I'm really sleepy, but when I try to relax, I think, and so I can't relax and sleep yet. I'll prob fall asleep when I'm too tired to think anymore.

PS- I got into grad school at the University of California San Francisco!!! I will be studying to be a family nurse practitioner in the fall with a minor in HIV/AIDS. :)