Saturday, November 17, 2007
Why do I do this to myself???
I've seen A Walk To Remember before. I knew what was in store for me tonight when I started watching it. And it started getting really sad, and I started boohooing, and then it got even sadder, and I'm just sitting here alone bawling my eyes out, and then the sadness continues, and I knew that it would, because I know how it ends. Yet I continue to torture myself sitting here, watching all the sadness, doing the ugly cry that's really noisy. My neighbors can probably hear me wailing. Well, that's an exaturation, but it is loud. Hope your evening has been less dramatic. The commercial is over now, gotta get back to my sad movie, so that I can watch her die in the end.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Pictures of the Glasses
Glasses I have yet to step or sit on.
Glasses I stepped on last year (or maybe it was 2 yrs ago now).
This is the pair I stepped on this morning.Broken
I stepped on my glasses this morning. For some reason when I got done reading my Bible last night, I put it down on the floor next to my bed and put my glasses on top instead of putting them both on the nightstand on the other side of my bed. And I guess I must not have actually gotten my glasses on top of my Bible b/c they were definitely on the floor when I stepped on them. I heard a popping sound and looked down to see my glasses under my foot. My heart sank. Luckily the lense wasn't broken, and now, finally this afternoon after much struggle I have managed to get the lense back in the frame (and I'm wearing my glasses at this very moment) but I can't get the frames to straighten out. So the good part is that I can still use them to see. The bad part is, I cannot use them to look attractive b/c they are sitting lopsided on my face. Oh well, at least they're just for reading. But I did this very thing to a pair of glasses last year! When will I ever learn?! I do still have a non crooked pair, but they're not as strong as the others.
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
hhhmmmm
I went to church on Sunday. The worship was good. The message was good. Communion was good. It was a diverse church. People were friendly. And then they talked about a special offereing they wanted to do in 2 weeks for the following:
$5000 for a missionary
$5000 for a new stage lighting system including spotlights
$15,000 to pave the parking lot
I'm glad the missionary was included and sad that the missionary is worth the same as the spot lights and less than the parking lot.
You rarely hear about a random special offering for the starving children. What if we put that up there with the other offering stuff?
what would it look like?
$0 for the starving people
$0 for the people that need clothes
$0 for the people that need shelter
$15,000 for the parking lot
Doesn't sound as good when you add in the $0 stuff. I know a lot of people that would argue with me on this point and rationalize the point and I think I understand that opposite view, BUT I still can't get the $0 out of my head for the starving people. Sure the new spotlights would be cool, and it would fix the current problem of not being able to see the giant screens very well that have the power points... BUT that's the point! The more crap we buy, the more we "need" and the more we have to spend in order to maintain what we have.
I see it in my own life too. The more stuff I get, the more consumed I get with preserving it, the more I feel like I need to update x,y, and z. And then I need to find a place to store my things. I need a bigger place to store my crap. They need shelter and I need shelter for my stuff. I NEED it. They need food, but I need my things.
The thing is, I'm so tempted everyday to be self-indulgent and most of the time I'm failing miserably in my effort to resist this temptation. So, when I go to church and they talk about all the improvements they want to make to the building, because it will make them be able to reach out to others and serve the Lord better, it upsets me. it's just another form of self-indulgence under the guise of serving the Lord, it burns me up. Every church I've visited for an extended period of time here has had some improvement project for their building. It's a lot of time, money and effort, and why are we kidding ourselves about why we're doing it. It's not for others, it's for ourselves.
The people that don't know Jesus are not out there starving for a cool building, lighting sytem, parking lot, etc. They're starving for love. They're starving for relationships. They're starving for community that comes in Christ. They're starving for freedom and redemption in HIM. I know we can do come cool outreach things with a building, but... but. ... i think we could do some really cool outreach things without a building, like forming real relationships. Making worship personal. Making community real.
$5000 for a missionary
$5000 for a new stage lighting system including spotlights
$15,000 to pave the parking lot
I'm glad the missionary was included and sad that the missionary is worth the same as the spot lights and less than the parking lot.
You rarely hear about a random special offering for the starving children. What if we put that up there with the other offering stuff?
what would it look like?
$0 for the starving people
$0 for the people that need clothes
$0 for the people that need shelter
$15,000 for the parking lot
Doesn't sound as good when you add in the $0 stuff. I know a lot of people that would argue with me on this point and rationalize the point and I think I understand that opposite view, BUT I still can't get the $0 out of my head for the starving people. Sure the new spotlights would be cool, and it would fix the current problem of not being able to see the giant screens very well that have the power points... BUT that's the point! The more crap we buy, the more we "need" and the more we have to spend in order to maintain what we have.
I see it in my own life too. The more stuff I get, the more consumed I get with preserving it, the more I feel like I need to update x,y, and z. And then I need to find a place to store my things. I need a bigger place to store my crap. They need shelter and I need shelter for my stuff. I NEED it. They need food, but I need my things.
The thing is, I'm so tempted everyday to be self-indulgent and most of the time I'm failing miserably in my effort to resist this temptation. So, when I go to church and they talk about all the improvements they want to make to the building, because it will make them be able to reach out to others and serve the Lord better, it upsets me. it's just another form of self-indulgence under the guise of serving the Lord, it burns me up. Every church I've visited for an extended period of time here has had some improvement project for their building. It's a lot of time, money and effort, and why are we kidding ourselves about why we're doing it. It's not for others, it's for ourselves.
The people that don't know Jesus are not out there starving for a cool building, lighting sytem, parking lot, etc. They're starving for love. They're starving for relationships. They're starving for community that comes in Christ. They're starving for freedom and redemption in HIM. I know we can do come cool outreach things with a building, but... but. ... i think we could do some really cool outreach things without a building, like forming real relationships. Making worship personal. Making community real.
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