1 Cor 2:9

"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him."

cool.

Romans 15:13

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

I like that verse, and I wish it for you and me today.

Zimbabwe

This article, Secret Lives, in The Observer Magazine has an awesome article about what's going on in Zimbabwe. Please read and look at the pictures!

What happens

when 10 or 20 yrs of your life are gone from your memories? What happens when you can't remember where you live and who takes care of you? What happens when you think your husband is still alive, when you don't recognize your only son? What happens when you can't figure out why you're somewhere or where you're going on a walk to? What happens when you can't even go out to dinner because it messes up your routine so bad that you can't remember basically anything for days? What happens when you can't remember your grandchildren or great grand children? What happens when you realize that your biggest fear is coming true? Do you realize that it's coming true? Are you really aware that you are losing your mind, your memories? Does your mind race in confusion and fear when you can't figure out which room you live in or why no one is coming to get you? Or is it nicer and you just blissfully don't know what's going on? I think it's scary, and I think you just don't talk about it because you're embarrassed, and you know that you should know what's going on. I think that it must be one of the most terrifying things that could happen to you. If it was your body going bad you could at least look forward to dying and going to heaven, but when it's your mind going bad, you can be trapped in complete confusion for years.

I miss Ganny. She's been forgetful for most of my life, but I remember the times when I could hang out with her, and she might repeat stories you've heard a million times in your life, but she generally would not repeat the same story in a visit or would only repeat it once. Last time I saw her she was like a broken record that you couldn't get to stop. She was literally finishing a sentence and then starting the same one all over again. I'd try and change the conversation to get her on a different track, but it was really hard. It's hard to spend time with her now. It's frustrating. It's sad. And I haven't even been around her lately, when she has been completely confused and doesn't know where she lives or who people are.

My parents must be really strong. I want to be like them. I hope that they don't ever need the kind of care that Ganny needs, but if they do, I wanna take care of them. Granted, I'll be moving them to Africa so I can do that, but I guess they won't know the difference at that point anyways. :)