Why do I do this to myself???

I've seen A Walk To Remember before. I knew what was in store for me tonight when I started watching it. And it started getting really sad, and I started boohooing, and then it got even sadder, and I'm just sitting here alone bawling my eyes out, and then the sadness continues, and I knew that it would, because I know how it ends. Yet I continue to torture myself sitting here, watching all the sadness, doing the ugly cry that's really noisy. My neighbors can probably hear me wailing. Well, that's an exaturation, but it is loud. Hope your evening has been less dramatic. The commercial is over now, gotta get back to my sad movie, so that I can watch her die in the end.